good and meh

    This is the first week where I’m not introducing something on this blog, which I won’t lie, was kind of overwhelming. So many topics to talk about! Emotional well-being, the status of new music, the war of 1812, how do I decide? I guess let’s roll with the first of the three because you couldn’t pay me to be attentive in US history class.
    I feel like I’m in this weird place of being totally amazing and level-headed while simultaneously being very overwhelmed by the ominous cloud of work that needs to be done before August. Everything will get done, I know, but when things can’t be crossed off the to-do immediately they linger over my head and put me in a frenzy to do anything to be productive.
I made a list of good things in my week and meh things in my week (a rose and thorn list if you will) to kind of sort out my brain in a very private, secret way, and I’m sharing it with you for public consumption.

Good 

• I made a wonderful fish dinner for my roommate and I on Tuesday
• I finished one of my favorite songs ever and we got a really cool cello player on it
• Going live and connecting with people online has been making me happy
• There was a magician at a birthday party i went to
• I started working on merch designs hehe
• Working out consistently is making me feel stronger
• My sister went to her first prom and the pictures made me realize how old she is - she’s like a full-blown adult it’s so weird and awesome
• I’m really excited for the next few months, I just feel like I’m going to look back on this period of time as a point when my life drastically changed

convo abt said fish w my mom 

 

are 6s lucky? or devils number idk 

 

cello slay

Meh

• I’m getting little breakouts on my chin so cute so fun
• There is a lot to finish in LA and I want to go home to NJ but I can’t until I finish things
• Feeling *adventure-less*
• Getting frustrated about trying to do things perfectly the first time I do them which is just pretty impossible
• My college and high school friends are all back in NYC and I miss them

Ok, that’s all. Maybe if you want you can write a rose and thorn list in the comments and I'll read them. Or not. Whatever you wanna do, I'm not your mom.

Bye,
Grace

title track

    I feel like you might have looked at the name of the blog and been like that’s a weird fucking name why would you ever name your blog that so I feel like I owe you an explanation. 

    Basically, for as long as I can remember I have lived in the extremes - going vegan cold turkey for five years because I watched a single documentary about how pigs are actually really smart, feeling beautiful for a little until I look in the mirror and notice the 3,909,028 things I need  to change, doing two hours of focused work to make up for the two weeks I spent  procrastinating, the list goes on. I guess it’s easier to live in black and white. I feel like our brains must be biologically wired to do this kinda thing to sort immediate threats from safety, a friend from foe, some survival bullshit. I’m probably making that up. Regardless, I wanted to name this blog something that represented how I always feel pulled between two extremes, thus (say it with me now) Too Much Too Little.

       Maybe one day I’ll learn what nuance is, but for now I will embrace the turbulence because the truth is I probably enjoy being a little dramatic. And chances are if you listen to my music you probably do too  (sorry).
    Hope I answered that question (that nobody asked) and I’ll see you next Friday.
    Xx,
    Grace

hello world

 

Hi - 

This is my blog “too much too little.” Writing words down on paper for some reason feels like the place I can be the most me without cringing too hard so I wanted to make this to try and be a little more vulnerable (surprisingly for someone who literally commodifies their feelings, it’s very hard for me). That’s kind of why I started writing songs I guess. Being alone in my room is where I can shed the likability mask I wear throughout the day and give myself the time to try and understand myself without looking to other people to validate me. 

Anyways, let’s get to the point. This is my introduction so let me introduce myself: 

This is real this is me 

• The name that has been put on this particular clump of cells is Grace 

• I’m 20

• I’m from Hoboken, New Jersey, which is a lot better than most people crack it up to be

• Even so, I was a bridge and tunnel kid and went to high school and college in New York (the main difference being that they start doing drugs a lot earlier there)

• I make music 

• I have made music since I was 12

• I love to cook, specifically any type of Asian food

• I love pickles (as some of you know), but I think I could die happy eating rice every day for the rest of my life 

• I’m a pescatarian 

• I’m 5’10 so shoes rarely fit me 

• It also means I played lots of sports in high school, basketball being my best 

• My favorite music changes, but I love anything that has emotional lyrics and weird production 

• Lately, that means lots of MGMT, Laundry Day, my friend Lauren Juzang, Paramore, The Japanese House, and this one Fountains of Wayne song called Hackensack 

• I wear sambas every day (and I started way before they were cool)

• I love putting on funky clothes and being creative through fashion, Alexa Chung and Jane Birken being my gods 

• My favorite movie is Ferris Bueler’s Day off and even though I’d like to think I’m like Sloane, realistically I’m more of a Jeanie 

• I got to tour for the first time this past fall and it was so fucking fun I actually can’t wait to do it forever I feel like the most complete version of myself on stage which feels counterintuitive to most people but it's true 

My first LA show!

• Even so, I used to have stage fright 

• I don't know how many is too many fun facts 

Now, this is just the basic stuff. I’ll be posting every Friday and inevitably will end up sharing secrets I probably shouldn’t (I can’t help myself) but we just met so that’s all for now. Catch ya next week. 

xx, 

Grace