Hi guys -
For those of you who don't know, hi this is my blog. It was honestly really hard to stay consistent with writing on tour but now that I'm back in the comfort of my home, I will be posting every Friday again.
So, what's new? ok...
First of all, well, you guys sold out my first headline shows ever so...uh thank you more than the entire world for that. I am just so grateful to get to see you all again SO soon and with A FULL BAND... I'm already starting to plan everything and I know it's going to be so special. Thank you for wanting to come.
I have been cooking A LOT. Chickpea curry, lots of different kinds of salads, pizza, soup cuz duh, and many many hardboiled eggs but I don't really know if you can count that as cooking. The one thing I missed the most on the road was cooking so I'm happy to get back to making food for myself - it's maybe my favorite creative outlet besides music.
I've been writing again which is exciting. Two songs in particular I really really love that you'll get to hear at some point. It probably didn't look like it, but I was pretty sad this past year. Like the kind of sad that you kind of forget about, that's white noise throughout your day, that you only start to hear before and after you're trying to sleep. I mean I'm always pretty happy even when I'm sad if that makes sense? I always know eventually the feeling will subside but anyway,,, usually, writing is my outlet, but I honestly went a few months without writing anything I liked probably because I wasn't done processing my emotions. Happy to report I feel a lot better and have hopefully gained some perspective as well. Exercise helps.
I missed my friends. I've seen them all since I got back and they are just as lovely as I left them! It's been fun to be 21 again.
In a few days I am going on a very special trip partially for work and partially for adventure. Think island...think accents...think lack of orthodontists...
I'm still pining in airports and in cars and in cafes. I still want a cat. I also still eat pickles. And I still read your letters...they're all by my bedside with the stuffed animals and bracelets.
I strangely feel older than when I left. It's only been three months but I feel changed, like I'm maybe more exposed, maybe more brave, maybe more ambitious.
As it probably is for you too, the world has been weighing on me extremely heavily. And like I suddenly have this internal and external pressure to comment on something I know relatively little about, when all I know is I can't help but cry watching so many people die and so many people live in fear. Maybe this isn't the place for this but it's been on my mind. I hope you all know I am aware and I am reading as much as possible. I hope for peace and respect for humanity.
Music I've been listening to that feels like a hug:
"How Many" ep - Jake Minch
"Basket Case" - Sara Bareilles
"Solsbury Hill" - Peter Gabriel
"Mud On My Superstars" - Keni Titus (shoutout Jason the best producer ever)
"Chicago - demo" - Sufjan Stevens
"Across the Universe" - Fiona Apple (it's a cover and it's great)
I guess that's my brain this week. See you in seven days. Love you.
Grace
